I feel weak and my hands are shaky and knees wobbly
I feel my heart so heavy and it sinks
To the bottom of the cold ocean floor
Today I officially broke up with Mi Amor
It's a bitter ending to the most amazing love life I ever had
Did I go overboard in trying to prove that I was not cheating on him?
I feel sick in the stomach and nauseate
My heart sinks and I'm heartbroken
Because I hurt Mi Amor - I disrespected, undermined and impatient with him
I disobeyed him and brought up an issue with a family member
I haven't been wise, but very foolish and stupid
I lack empathy
I should have put myself in his shoes and tried to feel how it would feel like
When I did not cease communication
Mi Amor, by way of this post, I want to tell you
That I am devastated by the bitter end to our relationship
I tried my best to make peace yesterday
But it eluded my grasp, leaving my more bitter
In my rash decision, I uttered things which you told me not to
My heart bleeds and sinks
I regret that I brought shame and dishonor to you and me
I am devastated that I provoked you to uttering nasty words
The damage has been done and it isn't a computer that I can press the undo button
I am ashamed and so ashamed
I should have waited and thought things carefully before making such moves
If by any chance you come to this blog and read this
I want to tell you that I will miss you always
You hold a special place in my heart
That will never change
I don't know if our paths will cross one day
But I wish you all the best in your life's journey
Mi Amor, I thought our love was strong
I never thought it would end bitterly in this manner
My heart sinks, I am devastated