AWA, any man can be a father but it takes someone special to be a dad. You're that someone special that I love forever. Your heart is a masterpiece of nature.
My Beloved and dearly loved Awa. I awoke this morning with you on my mind. On this Father's Day, as people celebrate with their dads, I miss you so so much Awa. In tears, I walked to the fridge and saw your picture on it. Ran my fingers through your beautiful face and 'kela'. Flashbacks of our happy times filled my mind. I'd scratch your back and kela. You'd talk to me and tell be beautiful stories, words of wisdom and the happy moments filled with joy and laughter.
There's a saying, I may find a prince but my Dad will always be my king. Yes, Awa, you'll always be my king. I love you and truly deeply miss you.
Though I can't physically see you, I know you exist in another form and are watching me from heaven. Awa, I am burdened with guilt that I did not build that house quickly and you lived in it before you died. I am burdened with guilt that I did not go quickly to Madang and be with you whilst you were sick. I'm burdened with guilt about that phone I did not let you keep it. I'm burdened with guilt that I did not give you enough money. I am burdened with guilt that its over 7 years now you've passed on and I did not build your headstone yet. Awa, I am sorry. This guilt seems to be forever haunting me.
Despite that, I want to say to you today, that I miss you. I feel sad and lonely. I'm walking life's journey alone, Awa. I don't feel like going home because the place is cold and there's this emptiness without you. I can hear your voice "iya Obag do" in the invisible realm only and it breaks my heart.
Today, I want to tell you I LOVE YOU AWA. You'll always be my king! HAPPY FATHER'S DAY AWA!
I will celebrate your memory. May it be a blessing.
